Struggle In Vein

I run away to the embrace
The shadow whispers of your grace
I feel the need, I feel the nod
The taste of you communes with God
So break my halo with your horns
Take this flesh that I have shorn
My sacrifice – naked, bare
My dignity to rend and tear

Bite the skin
Rend the soul
Climb inside
And make me whole
Taste the sweat
Pierce the vein
Let your pleasure
Be my pain

I want to scream when you moan
On my knees I will atone
To feel your kiss, to feel the sting
The needle punctures everything
I’m bound and gagged, tied up in you
To spread your wings and taste your dew
To be the something that you use
And then forget, or else abuse

Bite the skin
Rend the soul
Climb inside
And make me whole
Taste the sweat
Pierce the vein
Let your pleasure
Be my pain

My body is the sacrament
Your mouth upon this covenant
To burn the spoon, to crucify
To be reborn just as I die
To feel your hips, to feel your claw
To rip my heart, left bleeding, raw
Are you devil, demon, god?
Is all of this just a facade?

I beg of you
to please cut through
To what is true
The world askew
This vice imbue
This slice accrue
My bloodied view
Cannot construe
And so undo
All that I knew
Bless this taboo
This penance due
(as you take)
Me into you.

Bite the skin
Rend the soul
Climb inside
And make me whole
Taste the sweat
Pierce the vein
Let your pleasure
Be my pain
Take the guilt
of desire
Burn my sins
Within your fire
Make my body
Lose control
I am yours
Consume me whole.